Wise words...

Some people aren't worth your time or happiness. Love those who love you, leave those who curse you and pray for those who hurt you.

I'm a Gypsy

Lyrics

This is the translation from the spanish version to English and the English version of the song does not translate well!

Nunca use un antifaz (I never wore a mask)
voy depaso por este mundo fugaz (I'm just passing through this fast pace world)
No pretendo parar (It's not my intention to stop)
¿Dime quién camina (Tell me who choses walking)
Cuando se puede volar? (when u can actually fly)

Mi destino es andar (My destiny is to go)
Mis recuerdos (My memories)
Son una estela en el mar (are a wake in the ocean)

Lo que tengo, lo doy (what I have, I give)
Digo lo que pienso (I say what I think)
Tómame como soy (take me as I am)

Y va liviano (And travels light)
Mi corazón gitano (my gypsy heart)
Que solo entiende de latir (that only knows of beating)
A contramano (when its reciprocated)
No intentes amarrarme (don't try to tie me down)
Ni dominarme (or control me)
Yo soy quien elige (I am the one who choses)
Como equivocarme (what mistakes to make)

Aprovechame (enjoy me now)
que si llegué ayer (that if I got here yesterday)
Me puedo ir mañana (I could be gone by tomorrow)
Que soy gitana (Cuz I'm a gypsy)
Que soy gitana

Sigo siendo aprendiz (I'm still learning)
En cada beso (with each kiss)
Y con cada cicatriz (and each scar)

Algo pude entender (If their is something I learned)
De tanto que tropiezo (after tripping so much)
Ya sé como caer (is that now I know how to fall)

Y va liviano (And travels light)
Mi corazón gitano (my gypsy heart)
Que solo entiende de latir (that only knows of beating)
A contramano (when its reciprocated)
No intentes amarrarme (don't try to tie me down)
Ni dominarme (or control me)
Yo soy quien elige (I am the one who choses)
Como equivocarme (what mistakes to make)

Aprovechame (enjoy me now)
que si llegué ayer (that if I got here yesterday)
Me puedo ir mañana (I could be gone by tomorrow)
Que soy gitana (Cuz I'm a gypsy)
Que soy gitana
Vamos y vemos.. (We shall see)
Que la vida es un goce (That life is to enjoy it)
Es normal que le temas (It's normal to fear)
A lo que no conoces (that u don't know)

Tómame y vamos (take me and lets go)
Que la vida es un goce (That life is to enjoy it)Es normal que le temas (It's normal to fear)
A lo que no conoces (that u don't know)Quiero verte volar (I wanna see you fly)
Quiero verte volar

Y va liviano (And travels light)
Mi corazón gitano (my gypsy heart)
Que solo entiende de latir (that only knows of beating)
A contramano (when its reciprocated)
No intentes amarrarme (don't try to tie me down)
Ni dominarme (or control me)
Yo soy quien elige (I am the one who choses)
Como equivocarme (what mistakes to make)
Si vine ayer (that if I got here yesterday)aprovecha hoy que me voy mañana (enjoy me cuz I leave tomorrow)
que soy gitana (cuz I'm a gypsy)




So me... XOXO

What a fun day!

This weekend has been pretty active, I decided to challenge my comfort zone and adventure into the undiscovered places that surround my area. I've been promising Sophia that I would take her to the Disney Store so she could use her 2 gift cards. She have had those, one since her b-day, and the other since we left Chicago.

Thank you Sarah, she loved the shopping adventure and this is what she got!

Now, the closest Disney Store is about an hour away in a suburb north of Atlanta. For some reason there are no malls in my area, which is actually good because that would be torture. Unfortunately the same applies to Chipotle, my favorite fast food restaurant in the whole wide world, which is why any time we adventure into Atlanta or the northern burbs it is a MUST to eat there.

On the way back from the mall and while hunting for a Chipotle I ran into one of my favorite Chicago burger places, I had no idea there was more than one of these, but it absolutely made my day! I cannot believe food makes me this happy, lol!

No, I did not eat there because I had to satisfy my Chipotle craving, but I am soon to return to make myself one of those very deserved custom burgers that I adore. I guess that this teaches me that I might want to start researching some of my favorite Chicago places, I might be pleasantly surprised.

Since we were already near Atlanta I decided to check out Piedmont Park which I've been told it's Atlanta's smaller version of "Central Park". The weather was a little chilly and foggy which made the park even more beautiful! One of the beautiful things about Atlanta is it's vegetation, even in the city you can find tons of trees and foresty areas. Here are some random shots!

The day followed with an interesting twist, an MMA fight in my town where I ended up seeing Shia LaBeouf, unfortunately no pics of Shia, but he's been hanging out at the Waffle House down the street and at the Starbucks that I go after my runs. If I see him again I am definitely getting a pic of him! Here are a few pics of the fight! 

Drinks followed with new friends, it was a fun fun day, it feels nice to get a break  =)

XOXO

CM

Can't Sleep

I hate when this happens, I really thought I would sleep like a baby since I had a pretty busy day. Took care of the basics and To Do's and then hit the gym for 3 classes. Power, which is a weight training class, Zumba and last but not least Centergy, a mix of yoga and pilates.

I was exhausted and went to bed early and now I've been up for 2 hours... annoying! Maybe it has something to do with my munchkin sneaking into my bed around midnight. That is her latest, at about 12 to 1 a.m. she comes in my bed and tries to go under cover. I usually send her back to her room but sometimes I give in :s

Of course the results of that is me not getting my sleep, but at least she's happy... they will only be little for a bit, right? Soon enough she will be an obnoxious teenager that would want nothing to do with me (I hope not) so I might get all my "Bibby" time now.

I think this is it for now... My head is spinning with stuff that I wish was already forgotten,  time my dear friends, time will do it!

XOXO
CM

I Feel Lovely

Lovely Lyrics

I don't wanna be hurt
I just want to be little old me
Shouldn't have to think
Who am I suppose to be today
And what give you the right
To tell me who I should be
Who gave you that right

Cause I, I feel lovely
Just the way that I am
Yes I feel lovely
The way that I am

I know you want the best
Yeah only good things for me
But you have to realize
I can be all these things you project on me
Cause I'm beautiful to me
Doesn't that mean a thing

I feel lovely
Just the way that I am
Yes I feel lovely
The way that I am

I need that to be enough for you
Need that to be enough for you
Cause it's enough for me
It's enough for me

I'm I suppose to give up everything I am
Just to make you happy
I thought I was the one you
Always wanted me to be
It turns out I'm just little old me
I'm just little old me
And that's fine by me

Cause I, I am lovely
Just the way that I am
Oh yes I am,
Yes I am lovely
The way that I am
I am lovely lovely
I am lovely

On days like this I don't miss Chicago at all!

Besides the extremely high pollen count, that does not affect me or my little one because we are not allergic, it is a perfect day here in the Peach state. After hitting the gym for a butt kicking class of Centergy (yoga/pilates mix) I was able to lay in the sun for a couple of hours to get my tan on and it was just wonderful! Oh, sorry! Is it snowing in the CHI? Oops! Only flurries? 

Well to all my friends in the cold weather this is enough motivation to come visit!

Miss y'all!

A Little Bit Stronger by Sara Evans

Lyrics:

Woke up late today, and I still feel the sting of pain,
but I brushed my teeth anyway. I got dressed through the mess, 
and put a smile on my face. I got a little bit stronger.

Ridin' in the car to work, and I'm tryin' to ignore the hurt.
So I turned on the radio, stupid song made me think of you.
I listened to it for minute, but then I changed it.
I'm gettin' a little bit stronger, just a little bit stronger.

And I'm done hopin' that we could work it out,
I'm done with how it feels, spinnin' my wheels,
lettin' you drag my heart around.
And ohhh, and I'm done thinkin' that you could ever change.
I know my heart will never be the same, but I'm tellin' myself
I'll be okay. Even on my weakest days, I get a little bit stronger.

It doesn't happen overnight, but you turn around and a month's gone by,
And you realize you haven't cried. I'm not giving you a hour or a second or 
another minute longer. I'm busy getting stronger.

And I'm done hopin' that we could work it out,
I'm done with how it feels, spinnin' my wheels,
lettin' you drag my heart around. 
And ohhh, and I'm done thinkin' that you could ever change.
I know my heart will never be the same, but I'm tellin' myself I'll be okay.
Even on my weakest days, I get a little bit stronger.
I get a little bit stronger.

Gettin' along without you baby,
I'm better off without you baby,
How does it feel without me baby?
I'm gettin' stronger without you baby.

And I'm done hopin' that we could work it out,
I'm done with how it feels, spinnin' my wheels,
and lettin' you drag my heart around.
And ohhh, and I'm done thinkin' that you could ever change.
I know my heart will never be the same, but I'm tellin' myself I'll be okay.
Even on my weakest days, I get a little bit stronger.
I get a little bit stronger.

I'm just a little bit stronger.
A little bit, a little bit, a little bit stronger.
I get a little bit stronger.

Not sure what this means...

While I was sure I was over it, my dreams say something else. It is easy to redirect your thoughts and control your feelings throughout the day but what happens when you close your eyes and fall deep into that much needed sleep? 

Well, I'll tell you what has been going on! For the last 5 days I can't stop having these annoying dreams that involve HIM and his lies... His current relationship and me going, WHY? I just don't get it, I work so hard every day to not think about anything and focus on the things and people that matter, and then I go to sleep... UGH!

I honestly don't care about the WHY, I am just relieved that it's over and that it happened when it did and not after married because the last thing I want on my record is another divorce. This brings me to my next question - Am I ready to date again? 

Friends tell me I should start putting myself out there, but what is wrong with being alone? I have learned through trial and error that the best thing to do after breaking a long term relationship is to be alone. It is necessary to go back to yourself and learn about this new you. What are our issues? What did you drag from this partner? What do you need to work on before jumping into another imperfect partner?

Learning from your mistakes is essential to make sure that the story does not repeat itself, and that is why most rebound relationships do not last. How soon is too soon and how long is too long? At least a few months is necessary just to mourn and then whatever it takes you to learn what are those things that you need to work on so your next relationship is a healthy one.

No one says the next relationship will be perfect, because we all know that new challenges will come up; but at least by working on what were your flaws and faults in your previous relationship will help you not to make the same mistakes all over again. It will also make you more aware of the new challenges and help you deal with them in a healthier way.

Any tips on controlling your dreams? Because this is annoying!

See ya!

XO

Today could be a good day!

Wish me good luck y'all... Actually say a little prayer for me! Today could be a good day and the start of something new. I need all of your prayers, good vibe, and wishful thinking for this to go through.

So keep me in your thoughts =)

Love,

CM

One of those days

ME = STRESSED

Spring here feels like summer!

It is 75F here today and my pool is open... Of course I had to run over there and work on my tan because lately I look nothing like the Latina I am. Sophia played in the pool while I layed in the sun, of course that was until it was time for mommy to get wet and mess with her ;) I love throwing her around the pool and she loves jumping into mommy's arms so that is usually what we do. 

The weather is going to be awesome all weekend so hopefully by Sunday the tan will get darker! On days like today I can't complain about ont being in the Chi!

A Loser Like Me!

Gross, gross and more gross

Today I saw the movie "Jackass 3D"... Can I say disgusting? I am so glad I have a high tolerance for gross material because honestly I do not know what would have happened otherwise. This movie is a mix of absolutely hilarious with disturbingly disgusting. It's definitely worth seeing and probably even puking over it, just make sure your stomach is on empty because if not it won't be pretty!

Can someone remind me why I stopped running?

Back in the pavement! I went out for a run today for the first time in a long time, and I loved it! The weather was amazing not too cold, not too hot. I ran 5 miles and although I meant to run 3, I actually felt GREAT! Nothing like a good run to motivate you to keep it up. I did 5 miles in 55 min and that was way better than I expected.

I can't wait to go again tomorrow! I'm feeling a little sore but I love that feeling, besides I have an awesome yoga class in line for tonight.

Can I say bikini body? Woot Woot!

CM

And all I can say is...

The proof is in the pudding!

Love it!

Just a quick note... It's funny how YOU keep saying no one reads my blog but some how you keep talking about it! Not only that but my analytics are up to the roof and guess what you are not the only one reading it!

Get a life!

Love,

CM

My new blog is up!

Come on people! RIGHT NOW go check it out and leave me a comment!

http://www.chicagonow.com/chicago-je-taime/

My new blog!

Tomorrow I will be a real blogger, my blog at Chicago Now will be live! I will be blogging for a real publication, can't wait to see how it goes =) Please make sure you comment!

In constant contact

Have I mentioned I love the new version of Skype? Yes! It has been a great way to keep in contact with all my people, the ones that have been there for me through ups and downs, my mom, etc. It just feels so good to have a date with your friends even if they are far away. I get ready and cute just like if I was going out with them and we get on live, have a coffee (in my case chai) or a glass of wine and talk for hours. 

The new skype now has the coolest video conference feature so its easy to sit and chat with several friends at a time... I love it and makes me feel they ar so much more close to the people I love!

Hit me up for a skype date! 

Miss y'all!

Pray for Japan

Natural disasters are one of the most devastating tragedies, it makes you feel powerless. Caracas, where I am originally from, has a history of earthquakes and I was there while we had a few mild ones. Let me tell you people, it is one of the most terrifying things I've ever experienced in my life... and again, very mild with no damage. Seeing Japanese people running for their lives in a country where they are used to these type of phenomenon is pretty scary.

The damage is incredible and the images are heartbreaking. All I can say is that in moments like these we need to go back to basics... to our faith, get down on our knees and pray. Pray and be grateful for what we have and pray for  the safety and recovery of all of those who are suffering. Pray people, it makes a difference and when there is nothing else you can do, I will say it again, just pray!

This is why I love country music...

Cry - Faith Hill


If I had just one tear 
Running down your cheek 
Maybe I could cope 
Maybe I'd get some sleep 
If I had just one moment at your exspense 
Maybe all my misery 
Would be well spent...yeaaaa 

Could you cry a little 
Lie just a little 
Pretend that your feeling a little more pain 
I gave now I'm wanting 
Something in return 
So cry just a little for me 

If your love could be caged, honey, I would hold the key 
And conceal it underneath the pile of lies you handed me 
And you'd hunt and those lies 
They'd be all you'd ever find 
And that'd be all you'd have to know 
For me to be fine 

And you'd cry a little 
Die just a little 
And baby I would feel just a little less pain 
I gave now I'm wanting 
Something in return 
So cry just a little for me 

Give it up baby 
I hear your goodbye 
Nothin's gonna save me 
I see it in your eyes 
Some kind of heartache 
Darlin give it a try 
I don't want pity 
I just want what is mine 

Yeah.. Could you cry a little 
Lie just a little 
Pretend that you're feeling a little more pain 
I gave now I'm wanting 
Something in return 
So cry just a little for me 


Cry just a little for me 
Could you cry just a little for me? 

Today...

If there is something that keeps me going when I feel I am drowning, that is music. Some how when living with a broken heart, romantic and break up songs are my choice #1.... I really don't know why because in the mood I am I should be listening to everything but that, but I guess there is something about these song that make me heal. Sometimes, to me the best therapy is to cry and cry until everything is out and there is nothing better for that than country songs. Yes, you heard me right! Most of you probably didn't even know that was something I was into but it is, specially on days like today, besides it kinda fit with the south!

Here is one of my favorites as it's one that makes me smile no matter how bad I'm hurting.

Crank the volume up and sing it out loud!  

**BECAUSE I REFUSE TO STOP LOVING AND DREAMING!**

This one is for all you girls looking for the one, never settle! Wait for the one you know will never hurt you, the one who will hold you forever no matter the ups and downs. Don't worry, he wil come by, the one who treats you right, the one you can love with know reservations!

Until next post!

Love y'all

Embracing Your Weirdness

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Switching to organic

One of my latest challenges has been trying to eat and feed my little one mostly organic meals while cooking with a lot more veggies than usual. Fortunately, the advantage of living in the middle of nowhere is the fact that there are plenty of farms around here. This is my second week on a co-op of fruits and veggies and even though I am just getting half a box I still find myself trying to figure out how to use everything before the week is over.

One of my biggest concerns about signing for a weekly co-op was the life of my fruits and veggies. A couple of weeks ago after church I went to my friend's house for lunch; she is a holistic health coach and of course eats tons of whole foods. I was impressed when I saw the way she stored her vegetables, items like spinach, kale, lettuce, coleslaw, broccoli and carrots were all cut and stored in separate containers ready to go. It looked so easy to cook, she just grabbed and tossed and it was done.

I decided to try it as well, because usually half of my veggies go to waste. The result, long lasting crisp veggies... hoorray! This has helped me get Sophia more interested in eating veggies, she helps me clean and get the veggies ready in their containers making her feels more eager to eat them.

My princess' latest favorite has been scrambled eggs with spinach and American cheese, she loves cooking with mommy and feels like the awesome little helper that she is.

This storage method works very well for berries, my 3 boxes of strawberries and blueberries lasted forever, making it easy to just add them to your cereal, granola or yogurt.

Do you have any other tips that I can use? I would love to hear them!

Until next post =)

CM

If I was in the CHI...

Days like yesterday make my think about what would have happened if I were in Chicago. I guess it is a good thing that I wasn't there, because it would have been pretty tempting to try to get face to face with those two and see their faces. But besides that I would have loved to be able to just do what I used to do -  drive up and down Lakeshore Drive.

To me, Lake Michigan and the Chicago skyline are a natural high. It was love at first sight when I saw a lake that looked like an ocean with the most beautiful skyline laying besides it, it just made me relax. The traffic you would ask? I can care less, when I am on Lakeshore Drive I honestly just enjoy the view, and I am happy I did this every second I was there because today I miss it so much.

On a day like today, I would have called my friends and went for a run at the lake front (weather permitting of course) or just have gone out for a coffee to pour my heart out while sitting by the window of my favorite coffee shop. I miss the people watching, the elegance of the coats, being able to dress up even if I was just going to the grocery store, my Saturday trips to the Green City Market, and how simple was to just dress up and go, because no matter what the mood was, there is always something great to do in a city like Chicago.

I wish I was in Chicago on a day like today; the good news is that my wish will come true in just a few days. I will be in Chicago by the end of the week, I will sit on the lake front bundled up in winter clothes to just contemplate my "happy place" and charge my world with the energy that only Lake Michigan and the Chicago skyline can give.

Until next post!

CM

The friend code...

Most of you know I use this blog to pour my heart out, and lately I've had some life challenges that I would like to call "growth opportunities". Well my peeps, prepare to read as this post is a good one!


I guess this is not written anywhere, but there is for those with principles what is called a "friend code" where boundaries are established when it comes to dating friend's ex's. To someone with some sort of principles it should be unacceptable to date the recently separated wife of his very good friend. Well I guess my ex does not have those types of principals; so ladies and gentleman hide your Husbands, Hide your Wives, because these two know of no friend codes.

Let me remind you that I walked out of my engagement after a nasty fight with my ex where he told me very nasty things about how he felt about us because of me not making money. When I told him why was he still with me if he felt that way, he said - and I quote "why would I break up with you if you don't have a job and I will still HAVE to pay for everything" (I had just lost my job again) leaving me with no option but to walk out. I don't want to be with someone just because he feels trapped, if you love someone set him free if he's yours he will come back if not he was never yours. Within a few days I was apologizing and asking him to get back together - In my mind I was still blaming myself even after all the horrible things he had said. This just happened a little over 2 months with the man I thought I would spend the rest of my life with.

Well 2 weeks before that happened one of the married couples that we used to hang out with had split up their marriage of 17 years. My ex was really good friends with them even before I came into the picture but we took a couple of trips together and hung out often so when the separation between them happened WE were of course a shoulder to cry on. I considered her a friend so it was ok. I have to say that we kind of sided with her and we withdraw a bit from him, but at some point I realized that she was calling my fiancée way too much and kind of stopped calling me. She was asking him to have lunch together as they worked close by. At that point I stepped in and asked him to stop that as I thought it was very inappropriate. 

Well was I right... Today I received a call from her husband telling me he had run into them this morning while they (his soon to be ex-wife and my ex-fiancee) were checking out a hotel downtown. The occasion you may ask? Yesterday was her birthday, so knowing my romantic ex he wanted to make sure he wined and dined her just like he only knows. That is something that he is really good at; impress the ladies with romantic nights that cost tons of money.

Of course I left a nasty voicemail calling names in a rage, I am only human and I feel very hurt that out of thousands of single men and women out there these two had to go this low. But my pain had to be minimal next to our friend's pain, after 17 years of marriage his soon to be ex-wife (because they are still not legally divorced) was now sleeping with one of his best friends. 

I just don't understand what leads people to make such poor choices. Because this is not bad enough my ex has the nerve to call me saying that he doesn't appreciate my v-mail and name-callings and that he can date whom ever he wants because he is a "free man". Then he proceeds to threaten me to report the car that he agreed I would take (and pay for when I could) as stolen, and starts threatening me with going to my immigration hearing and other family stuff. Really dude? You get caught doing something as low as that and you are upset at me?

I guess its nothing personal as he also threatened our mutual friend too, when he ran into them he took a picture of them loading their luggage in what used to be MY car... oh the irony! and then posted it on his Facebook... Oh the power of social media! Obviously they were on the down low and they are not so proud of what they are doing. IF YOU ARE SUCH A FREE MAN AND CAN DATE WHOM EVER YOU WANT THEN GO ON WITH YOUR LIVES AND LEAVE US ALONE.

All I can say is that karma is a BITCH and sleeping with friend's soon to be ex-wives is not cool, there are plenty of people out there, so this was a really poor choice.

Would love to see comments on this post, I think the "friend code" topic is quite an interesting one.