When I go back and see all that happened in the last 1 1/2 years I can't be prouder of myself, it was rough but somehow I managed to keep going and stay focused and it is finally paying off. I promised myself to set goals move forward and leave the past behind and it was the best thing I could have ever happened to me.
My goals were set on things I wanted to accomplish to better the life of my daughter, things that would make me grow and learn. Career goals, health and lifestyle changes, the much needed structure that I lacked and that Sophia very much needs and deserves. All these things are little by little materializing by staying strong and focused and leaving distractions aside.
I have learned that my focus needs to be me and Sophia until every single detail of my life is in order. Career, finances, health, fitness, interests... Until I become the woman I want to be for my daughter. Yes I am seeing someone but I don't let that be my focus, I do not and will not let that distract me from the goals I have set for myself.
I want to continue to be strong and independent, be there for Sophia and lead by example. Not only I want to be there physically, but I want to be present every moment we are together. I don't want to miss a thing, I don't want distractions, I don't want Facebook, or texting, or computers or anything that could rob me of those precious moments that become memories. Memories are the one an only thing that no one can take away and will stay with you forever.
You know? they grow so fast and if we get distracted we miss it, miss these little moments that matter tons. Just looking at her smile makes me happy, and these summers away from her just remind me not to take all our time together for granted. It makes me miss her so much that hurts, I don't want to take anything for granted. I want to appreciate every second with her, every moment that I get by her side is just the greatest gifts of my life!
Our new life is about to start and all things keep falling into place. I move to our new place in just 2 weeks, my new job is going great and life is just wonderful... what else can I say? I just want to take it all in and be grateful. I don't want to take any of this for granted because even though I have worked hard for it and I know I deserve it, I am also aware of how easy life can change and have this all go away.
So just remember to be humble, grateful and every day that you wake up alive COUNT YOUR BLESSINGS!!!
XOXO
CM
