Today I was cleaning and saw the little scrapbook album that I had made for my ex one Christmas... I actually pulled it out and opened it. I used to cry every time I looked at it, now I just get so mad, we looked so happy... what a f'n lie!
All the moments that I thought were special not only were a lie but they were just little charades to feed his ego, there was nothing special about our relationship, because he is doing it all over again with the whore that used to be my friend. Oh well, lesson learned right? But how do you know when it's real and when it's not?
All I know that I refuse to let him ruin my ability to dream and love fully, I will remain as the same hopeless romantic that I've always been and will love with all my heart once again when I find someone worthy of it. In the mean time, I love myself, do the things I love and enjoy to give Carla some "me time".
I am back to doing the things I love and even new ones that enjoy even more than the old ones alone, I am enjoying cycling, now swimming, still trying to take the hate out of running and I have the love of my life ready to cheer me up every second... Sophia!
So for that I am happy and grateful, and most importantly, I have God... who will NEVER EVER let you down!
Hope you all are having a great Father's day weekend.
XOXO
CM
