One more year

Another year goes by and honestly I think this one will be one of the best of my life. The past 8 months have definitely changed me, but each day that goes by I am more convinced that it changed me for the better. Everything is starting to fall into place and I am truly happy with many things, my life just keeps getting better and better.

Every time a birthday approaches I can't help but think of what I have accomplished and boy did I do a good job this past year. These are some of the milestones! Survived a super-hard breakup... breaking up an engagement was one of the most difficult decisions I've ever made but also one of the wisest. With that break up came a move where I had to start from scratch in a new state, make new friends, find a new place and a new job... but everything has been accomplished.

I finally have a job that I love in a great company, in an area that I never thought I would be working in just because my background is so not related. I yet managed to land the job and excel at it in such a way that what started as a consulting gig ended up in a full time job. 

New friends... tons of them! Awesome people that have made me feel at home and that have been there for me in these rough last months. Reconnected with old ones, specially Mariana who I can't thank enough for being there... I guess the bonds we create in our childhood never go away, and this is a true example.

Health wise I can't be happier... I have managed to maintain healthy choices when it comes to my diet as well as Sophia's. I completed my first triathlon, I am in excellent shape, almost back to the size I was before my last relationship and I can't feel better about it. Been working on my abs and I am telling you all "THIS YEAR I AM GETTING MY SIX PACK" I am almost there and I can see it coming out, been doing Ab Ripper X and boy does it work! Once I get leaner I will post pics!

I just can't even begin to explain how blessed I feel... I still miss my Chicago friends and the city I love but I am so grateful for all the things I have and all the wonderful things I have accomplished in this 2011 year. I feel happy, loved by my friends and family and most importantly in peace. I just know that this year is going to be a great one!

Thank you God for all my blessings!

XOXO
CM

I look so good without you!

The BITCH came back! lol

There should be a male version of this song! HAHAHAHA!

Yeap, this is what I think!

Random thoughts!

Tomorrow my munchkin starts 1st grade... Time goes by so quickly, now she is a 1st grader, lost her 2 front teeth and who knows what else is coming. I cannot believe how fast childhood goes by us and all I hope is to enjoy these years as much as I can while they last. 

Speaking of which, she came back from "daddy's" wanting to sleep in bed with me and even though I love cuddling with her that is one rule I will not break. She is allowed to sleep with me once a week and that is because obviously there is no one else in my bed. She has been sneaking into my bed in the middle of the night and I have been sending her back. She cries and whines but I can't let her win this one. It's just funny to see how she remains a little girl for certain things and acts so independent for others. 

She has also been going through some ups and downs in regards to my ex, she is again wanting to call him and has been asking me if she is ever gonna see Tyler again. She even asked me if I knew where "Ty's mommy lived" so I could call her to see if she would let her play with him. How do I deal with this? Like it's not enough that I still miss them... It breaks my heart to hear her talk about it and even cry about it, it's been 8 months and she is still having a hard time. 

I guess all I can take from this is that I am certainly not getting her involved in another relationship, that I will not move with anyone unless we are married and that "IF" I ever marry again it will be FOREVER. In the meantime I am taking a break from dating. I am clearly not ready for it, I want to keep working on myself and the person I want to become. I want to be happy with being single and keep enjoying my "alone" time, which by the way, I think I have done a pretty good job so far.

All I can say is that I know I'm not over my last relationship, I am still hurt and am often confused about how I feel about it. I miss being in love, I miss the relationship I THOUGHT I HAD, the partner I thought he was, etc. Sometimes I wish someone came out of nowhere and make me fall deeply in love. 

But then I think, why this need to "fall in love"? why can't I be o.k. with the life that I have and all the blessings that I have been given? My focus is Sophia and there should be room for anything but that. I want to work on it, on being o.k. with the fact that I am not crazy in love with anyone, that it's o.k. to be crazy in love with LIFE! That all I need is to be crazy in love with is the God that blesses me every day with another day to live right next to my daughter who is smart, and beautiful and healthy... Really, what else can someone ask for?

XOXO
CM

Awesome Monday!

Today was a great day, dropped my munchkin at Summer Camp, she doesn't start school for another week. Then extremely busy day at work, I got 2 temps to help with workload after the massive layoff so that was definitely refreshing! I accomplished a ton, it is nice to get no resistance when directing people, that was not the case before.

I also managed to get to the gym for a run/swim that went wonderfully, short ones 3-mile/900yds but I felt so good. Gym daycare closes at 8:30 pm so if I don't get to the gym early I will have to cut my workouts short now. I meant to swim 1100yds but I ran out of time, still it felt awesome!

I am happy to be back to my daily routine of Sophia, cooking and gym. Summers are always my little vacation from reality and though it is nice to have that I am always anxious to get back to real life. I'm back with my munchkin and nothing is better than that.

I now need to figure out how to fit cycling into my daily routine, at least for a long ride on the weekends. I can do Spinning at the gym and that will keep me in shape but nothing like the breeze on your face and pedaling until you can't pedal no more... I miss the Comet! Hopefully I can find someone to babysit this weekend so I can go for a ride, I really miss getting out there.

Well my friends, that's it for now!

XOXO
CM